Simplicity is Virtue

Sunday, December 24, 2006

o yeah.. two more things i didnt add... i may be banned from going to church already so yeah..
so i guess i may not be able to see you all again.

and secondly... not even my parents know anything about me.. trust me..

8:37 AM
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well.. maybe sometimes..

hi everyone its been a long time since i posted an entry..
sorry that i've to allow you to wait sooooooooo long.

well.. been kinda busy for the pass few days with lotsa stuff especially work..
but heck i aint gonna blog about it..

what i want to blog about now is what happened today on the 24th of december 2006..
today morning started off kinda rush cause i woke up kinda late..
service was alright but being tired my mind drifted off..
the girls singing was so soothing that i tink if i was in bed it would have put me to sleep immediately..

after service went around to wish people merry christmas eve..

okay.. it just reached 12 MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

after that we went for lunch...
then we went to play lan..
now there's where i did something bad..
well.. initially i told my mom that i'm going for the night service..
well.. after playing lan for say about 5 hrs..
glenn decided not to go and so did japheth and bird..
so being follower.. i just follow them lo.. without thinking of the consequences...
so we continued to play on till 9+ which then i left and took a cab home..

well when i reached home..
i cooked up a story that i was listening during the service and i didnt know who led worship and blah blah blah..
so my mom questioned alot of stuff and in the end i just said that after worship i just left and went downstairs to talk with japheth and bird..(sorry to have used ur names guys and gals..)

well.. about 30 mins later she came back and ask why i decieved them and asked whether i knew it was wrong and why didnt i apologise and all that stuff...

there's one simple reason why i chose what i chose..
well.. cause i didnt wan to anger her.. and i tot i could smoke through it..
well.. in the end she gt angry anyway.. and i really hate it when she's angry..
whether i tell the truth or not she'll still get angry for no apparent reason..
to those who knows about it you should know how i feel..

there are times when i seriously wanna just hit something..
but oh wells.. i'm still learning to control myself so ya...
there are so many things that i want to do but still cant..

argh.. there are so many things i do that i tot could be for the better..
guess i was wrong..

well.. merry christmas is suppose to be happy and i will just have to try and be i guess.

whats the worst thing is that she said that dont you know that it is a sin..
hello.. of course i know its a sin..
i just read a verse today..
if a person sins forgive the person,
if on the same day a person sins 7 times forgive him 7 times.

i know i'm in the wrong..
but at times you just dont have to go that far right?

well.. people who read this just know that i'm going through hard times and try not to go to my family matters lest i wanna share it with ya..
there are lotsa stuff people dont know about me..
but i guess only time will tell its secrets..

i do wish u all a merry christmas and a happy new year..

goodnights..

7:58 AM
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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Lights Are Green

I feel so glad =)
one thing has already been settled..
however there's still something thats not settled yet..
when will it be settled?
i dont know.. its been draggin on for weeks and alot of people are getting sick and tired..

but not to think about it now man..
i've gt a cprog pract test tomorrow..
i have to score very well.. if not i cant forgive myself..
i promised to work hard and i shall..

A.Z's back from outer space

3:47 AM
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Friday, December 08, 2006

.Everything's Changing.

MBJD is falling apart.
=) = =(.

Facing Problems.

Missing certain stuff now.

Confused all over.

In real need to explain to myself of certain stuff and whether i've gt the courage to do it.

why is everything i do,most of the time, have a bad outcome.

.myworldistumblingdownfasterthanthelondonbridge.

6:33 AM
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Thursday, December 07, 2006

..

isitsupposetohurtsomuchinside?

5:27 AM
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Wednesday, December 06, 2006

061206

=D
today was a fun day though it was partially ruined by my mom but all in all it was still alright =P
introduced aretha to danny.
they seem to be getting along.. haha..
someday danny some day when nabilah is back.. hope i gt the name correct..
lol..

shant blog much about today.. haha..
except that we're happy =)
A-Z thought the letters are far apart we're always close.

for people who are feeling sad right now(especially moo):
take care that thy faith is of the right kind -- that it is not a mere belief of doctrine, but a simple faith,depending on the Christ, and on Christ alone.
Charles Haddon Spurgeon

6:58 AM
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Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Sweet Annoiting Wash Me Over

=D that explains most of today.
today's staff meeting was experiential.
Andrew gave us a heart to heart talk and i still dun understand why so many people still doesnt like him.. its takes a real man to pour his heart out to so many people..
cant wait to get back to work.. its been like a month since i worked.

anyways.. tml's event is also =D
ahha. gt lab test. which means i end school early!
ahha..
hmm.. in the afternoon gonna meet Aretha then go library to study..
after that its dinner and home i go i guess.

this week is passing real fast.

MBJD are still having troubles..
its kinda sad to see everything go..
moo.. i seriously do not know what to do.. its left to God to do whatever he can..
i guess you're the only one left fighting girl.
sorry i cant really help you out..
but i would if u could come up with a solution..

zach.
gghopeyou'rehappy =P

7:47 AM
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Monday, December 04, 2006

its a freaky day.

ok.. the pass 15 mins have been a bit creepy..
thanks anobanana for reminding me of the song..
because of that it reminded me of the song we are the reason..
and for some reason.... its seems to involved a few people...
first i told bird and moo..
moo said her fren also just told her about the song..
then later bird said she maybe would be playing it for christmas this year..
then later i asked cai ying if she had the song.. she said not and directed my to Tee..
i asked Tee.. and guessed wat he said...
haha.. he said he had the song..
and he was shock cause around two weeks ago bird asked him for the SAME two songs i asked him.. the other song was days of elijah..

Just One Act.
Can really make a Difference.
thank you Lord.

7:51 AM
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.feels like the whole world has been lifted up.

hellos =)

today has been a great day!.. i repeat great!.. haha *pouts*
well.. school was alright today.. during cprog learned a new topic called array..
seems chim but i tink i can do it.. haha.. then after that was CRS..
during CRS alot of arguments going on..
lol.. and lotsa shouting..
luckily its CRS class and not a real fight..
we're just ACTING so teacher can give us more marks..

after that i met Aretha and went home together..
chit and chatted all the way.. lol..
bumped in to christopher at cck..
said our hi's and then bye's..

then now.. i'm home!
hahaa.. short a sweet day..

quote of the day:

To my Creator I resign myself,humbly confiding in His goodness and in His mercy
through Jesus Christs for the events of eternity.

John Dickinson.

6:11 AM
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Saturday, December 02, 2006

is this the end?

the day started off quite alright..
kinda slept at like 6am.. woke up at around 11.30+ by wei xiongs call..
coming over liao.. so gt up and changed then went out..
well.. we drove around Singapore la.. shant go into detail..
kinda lazy to actually.. not that i dont wanna tell..

church was like really no comments la..
my walk with God is alright but its the life that i'm living thats giving me a big headache..
why why why?
during the whole supper its like i'm just sitting there eating my food and keep hush... ate like 7-8 packets of chilli for my fries not forgetting one curry sauce.. all i could do was just stuff myself with food.. didnt feel all that right..

then when were getting ready to leave... uncle James ask me how was i.. i was hit hard by that question... though i knew a reply would be a lie... i had to say i was fine.. i really dont wanna like. talk about it man.. after i saw what happened...

the bus ride home was a tragedy..
with like my mind racing with so many thoughts...
i couldnt take it..
though i did hold back most tears..
some still trickled down.........................................................................................................
wats with everyone now man...
is this TNG the EMO generation?

thanks aretha for chatting with me like till so late btw.. its like 3.20am now and ur still chatting with me..

will mbjd really come to an end?
i was caught in a whirlpool i didnt want to come in...

to fs and kokwei.
i can be happy but i still know that i have all this at the back of my head.

whatcanidonowbutprayforaclearconsciencetosolverthisissue
soonithinki'llbecomedeliriousandgoinsane.

11:10 AM
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Friday, December 01, 2006

ARGH! sleepless nights.

i cant sleep....
why why why...
its like 4 am and i'm still sitting infront of the comp....
lying on the bed counting isnt helping at all...
is there too much on my mind?
if there is what is on my mind exactly???

i'm so damn bored..
msn i put away sleeping but..
i'm still here...
jowell just knocked off...
why can i sleep..........................................

this is getting kinda irritating...
anyways.. i d/l utorrent again..
d/l borat the movie and robin hood merry men in tights..
seriously i'm getting stoned by boredom.
boredom knocks hard.. REAL hard...

i'm typing in the dark...
sorry if i made any errors...
cause i cant really see anything and trusting on instincts to see where the buttons are..

whatamifeelinginsideofmenow?
lonelinessgriefsadnessoramijustbeingtooparanoidaboutcertainstuff?
idontknowwhatswithmethesefewdaysbutGodplshelpmegetpassthisperiod.
thisworldisfilledwithsomuchviolenceyethappinessstillpersists.
somuchdestructionyettherearestillsomewhopersevere.
amifeelingsolow?
whatamitroubledabout?
BGR?
idontknow
SCHOOL?
idontknoweither
CHURCH?
thatsthebiggestquestionmark.

ithinkicantsleepisbecauseicantbeartonotworryaboutmyfriendsandfamily.
i'veseenalotsincethestartofthisyearandthingsaren'tpretty.
i'veturnsaddistic.
jealousyisrisingatanalarmingratebuti'mstilltryingmybesttokeepitdown.
angerisburninginsideofme.
ismyfacademeltingaway..
canlifestillgoonthewayitis..
amirunningawayfromthetroublesiface..
amistillthepersoniknow..
amistillthepersonothersknowmeas..
amistillme.....
whoisme..
ME..

butthenagain...
memememememememe...
amithatselfish...
iguessiam...
howcanichange...
tellmesomeone...
tellme...
dontgivemebullocks...
tellmetruthfullywhatyouthinkaboutme..
tellmehowhaveioffendedyou..
tellmewhatamilike..
iwanttochange..
beforeicanchangetheworld..
i'vetochangemyself.

MANINTHEMIRROR-MJ.

11:50 AM
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